Gomenasai

today was the day I found out my true self, and those all my bad things were finally revealed. I don't know that I hurt somebody's feeling. all this day I just blame it all on that guy
"You should know that I do really love you." That's what you said, I want to believe you, but it's hard to do. because all that thing you do is just really bother me in some way. Will I find relief if I choose not to believe?

this day you came around and you stood in front of me. Said "I'm sorry that I'm late, I'm sorry that I made you have to wait." But you know that I won't forgive this refrain 'Cause I know how this thing goes, I know you will be late again. but behind the scene you've been doing some important things I didn't know. I said it's your fault not to tell. but it's actually mine.


I don't act maturely enough, in all situation I blamed it on you. I can't really read your mind. that one day when you were there, laying down with pain. you waited for me, for a really long time. but I didn't show up. all I can say just "sorry" I didn't do a thing, I didn't pay my mistakes. all I can see is just your happy self. without knowing you pain inside.


as the day goes by, all I promised is not to makes you down. but all I can feel is just you made me down every day. but the reality you were the one who felt down, I was the one who hurt you. from what I've said and what I've do. all the thing that made me mad easily were just your covered nice thing.


today I left you there hopeless hurt. and then I just realized my true self and your covered pain. I wish there were a time machine, I wish I could fix it all. remember that time when we spent our time together, holding each other's hands while you shine a smile. just like that lone blue blooming flower on the roadside, it was me when I'm not with you.

maybe I been so selfish to you, or maybe I just cannot control myself, sorry for being childish.  Please... whatever it is... I'll change, I promise! even if you're about to leave please forgive me. the one drop falling on my palm, that one drop tells me that my true self were so sorry, if there was a farewell please get me away from that. my life didn't worth a thing if you not there by my side. all I want to say is just I'm so sorry. come back, wipe my sorrow. the only feeling I want to convey, that I LOVE YOU just that.


gomen Ee-kun....